Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Do you ever feel like....

You are sinking and cannot find your way back up! I have been the biggest crab to my family and I cannot make myself stop! I do not know what it is that has triggered this, but I have got to figure it out. I crab at my kids for nothing, I crab at my husband well just because and I cannot get this feeling of me not spending enough time with my family! I crab at Rachel with homework. I crab at Haley because she cannot do this or that. I feel like I am being pulled this way and that way and I do not know which way I am going.

I realize we have a lot going on right now, but my work is not helping at all. Today as of 9 p.m. I have only worked 2 hours. They keep telling us that they are going to lock down the system and we will have work, well I wish this would happen soon cuz no work is not paying the bills. I did take off and go to Kirksville and get some well needed groceries as my cupboards were empty. I had been scraping by with what I had and getting a few things at the local grocery store, but it was time to go. As always I had it in the back of my mind that I needed to get home and get the groceries put up and get Haley picked up by 1 p.m. as Chris was manning the shop by himself today!

I just need to figure out how to be not so grouchy, please someone tell me the magic that I need to get me turned around! Thanks!

6 comments:

Finding Joy in the Journey said...

maybe the warm weather will help? just remember one day at a time...so you were grouchy today--it's okay, just let it go and look forward to a better tomorrow.

good luck!

Andrea Frederick said...

me time?....fun time....just take an hour and have fun with your girls/family and then hit the floor running again! I'll be thinking about you and we have sonlight tomorrow night if you want haley to come, it's camo night!

Pamela Lin Thompson said...

Welcome to life! NO there is nothing wrong with you. You are just busy. Let something go. Make a list, decide what is least important, so you only sweep the floors once a week or once a month, laundry only on Thursday, not every night. It's o.k if things are done. Do the most important, love and laugh, the cleaning will come later. One day, one task, write it down, mark it off, you are doing tons, be a bit easier on you~ HUGS AND LOVE TO A SUPER MOM AND SISTER-IN-LAW~

Bree Shaw said...

we are in the same boat right now. i don't have any advice except for read my blog today. hope WE figure it out:) have a great day!

Shonya said...

Well, if it's you I should say something nice like 'get a break' or something. But when it's me, well, the truth is someone needs to tell me "get over yourself". Honestly--isn't that embarrassing to admit?!

Jena said...

sometimes, when I feel like that (everyone does!) I just try to be the opposite, ridiculously happy. If I'm going to "crab" instead I'm almost like a clown. It's goofy, but it makes me laugh and the kids laugh. And I still feel like I get to vent. Just in a different way!

I'm totally going to miss this place! I"m gald we get to keep in touch throuh this blog world!